I'm trying on loads of clothes at multiple stores and nothing looks good. Nothing feels right. The voice inside my head is on my side, "What's with fashion and sizes these days?" I agree and go on my way. Then I'm standing on a scale naked at Kabuki Springs. I'm not sure what prompted me. I rarely ever weigh myself. I've never owned a scale, and since I hadn't been to the doctor's office in seven years I had no clue about my weight. I was shocked. A slow stammer of disbelief began brewing. You can't be serious. When did I start to weigh this much? I'm the heaviest I'v ever been outside of pregnancy. My breath accelerated and my mind searched for reasons. Somewhere in the thicket of life I became unaware of my physical well-being. Has this happened to you?

Okay, in all honesty I wasn't crazily out of shape or obese. I was still dancing, performing, and taking classes. But I was not woke to the changes. As I entered my late 30s my body and metabolism were changing. The idea of taking care of myself was evolving, requiring a different type of care. What to do?

I'm a gemini which means I am game for any experimental challenges that have potential to be life-changing. Since I'm a dancer I knew more exercise was needed. Not the artistic I'm so in touch with my body I'm practically leaving it kind of exercise, but good-old fashioned cardio and strength. I began to infused 10 minutes of cardio and abs each into my every other day tasks. After a couple of months I added an additional 10 mins of upper body strength (shout out to pop sugar fitness and fitness blender for the free YouTube clips). Youtube is a great alternative to joining a gym. My life is enormously busy with work, children, and art-making, so my process needed to be simple like laying my yoga mat down in my living room and watching to someone telling me what to do for 45 mins.

With this new practice I became more aware of my muscles and their use throughout the day. I shifted my posture to utilize my core more, and I held myself accountable. I still don't own a scale because for me it's not about the numbers are achieving some look. I care more about how I feel and that I am prioritizing the time and thoughts to take care of myself. When I ask, "did you do your exercises this week", and the answer is "no", I'm aware that I am denying myself the love and self-care that I deserve. 

The outcome: I feel better, appear better, and have more energy. What's really special is that now I can finally wear this fantastic dress that's been hanging in my closet watching my body change from smaller to plumper, to where it is now. I'm not back to the original size I was when I first bought it, but for now at least me and my body can snuggle in! 

So you dance, teach, choreograph, parent, volunteer, and advocate - the list goes on and on. 30-somethings do a lot with their increased ability to "change the world". Along with our multiple titles and tasks, we easily forget how vital taking care of us is, especially when we work to serve others. 

Don't forget it! Self-care is critical, especially at this time in our lives when burnout is common. What is important is creating the time to feed your passion. Note: I said creating the time not finding the time. So what is your passion?

Mine has always been dance. But I'm no longer in my twenties or a college student with the privilege to take technique class 3-5 times a week. And now I have more responsibilities like a full-time job, two children, a small dance company and a mortgage. With many obligations, taking a dance class can easily fall off my to-do list. So what do I do? I keep it real.

I've made a pact with myself that I will never go longer than two weeks without taking class, resulting in dancing at least twice a month. I know, it sounds like hardly anything, but sticking to this reasonable plan keeps me from never saying, "OMG, it's been months since I've danced." And so much happens on a given day that having this time for myself feels incredibly nourishing, and it keeps me present in the technical dance class scene.

My other self-care duty is a massage at least every 2-3 months. I'll never forget when my grad school modern dance teacher told me he is as serious about his weekly massages as he is paying his phone bill. My budget doesn't support this frequency, but I owe it to myself to put some hard-earned cash aside to take care of my body. I mean c'mon this is our livelihood and physical instrument!

So what is important to you? Getting that mani and pedi? Taking a hike or swim in the ocean? Visiting your favorite spot or best friend. Whatever it is that makes you feel good and loved, make a commitment to complete at least one of your passions in a reasonable time frame, and don't be hard on yourself. The point of self-care is not to feel like you have failed for not keeping your promise. Set a realistic timeline and goal. Go easy at first. You can always add more. And you'll feel good that the boss in you says you have to do it. In the end you'll see it is worth it.

Do you have a self-care regimen that works for you or ideas to add? Please share in the comment box, and remember to create time for yourself!